my life is pretty much boring

so yeahh this is for everyone who watches my youtubes and maybe who follows me on twitter or even the few people who know me in real life who havent heard from me in forever.  i have no life right now.  i am working 2 jobs which isnt bad because if you add the hours up its equals one job but it feels like a million because it just does.
also my brithday party is coming up and i have invited people sparatically and not really heard definates from many people. so i should start calling people up.  i finally bought stuff for it today.  a lot of luau stuff was on clearance so i picked it up and got like all my decorations for 20 bucks! yay. 
another thing is youtube. i filmed an intire vlog and went to put it on my computer.  you have to understand i used a camera i havent used in ohh a year and i went to hook it up and its not vista compataple. soo i lost an entire vlog until i get enough enthusiasm to watch it on the camera, write down what i put in it and refilm it on a camera that will work on vista!
one last dilema.  i want to buy a nikon D40 but i have been having some thoughts that go against it lately.  i used to have a Canon S750 and it got stolen in march. i loved if but i wanted the zoom of a SLR.  so i’l stuck between A)getting a small camera and saving for an SLR later in life. B)buying an SLR now and getting a smaller one by christmas or C)sitting on my floor and being frusterated and not knowning what to do.  the problem is i’m going to new hapshire in 2-3 weeks and i want to take amazing pictures but i want to be able to take videos too and my camera i HAD got stolen (see 3-4 lines up).  THIS IS MY DILEMA. i really wish i was one of those rich kids sometimes who got exactly what they wanted all the time. 
soo thats my rant for the day remember

1)youtube vlog by wednesday
2)birthday party 2 weeks
3)camera dilema!

A busy busy summer

well most of my posts won’t be this meaningless.  but i did feel like writing about what i’m doing this summer in case i dont update for a few days so you will understand!  I’m working TWO jobs with a total of 5-6 days a week.  the one day i have gaurenteed of is sundays and thats filled with church and youth group then coming home and being really really tired.  i also am getting ready for senior year next year and SATs in october.  i really need to open up OneNote and organize everything i have to do or else i think that i’m going to explode with all this information in me.  Haha.  other than that this is what i have coming up this summer

July21-Water country
July24-my birthday party
July 25-my birthday!
July29-I leave for Soulfest!
August3-I get home from soulfest and work all night.
August7-Jonas brothers at the Tweeter!
September3-back to school.

So don’t expect posts on those days, instead expect really really long ones the day after!
ok well thats about it OH and look me up on twitter  www.twitter.com/sfabsx

if you found me…

through twitter or my canga or if you’re one of the .543 ppl to follow this back when i wrote, well this is where i’m going to write from now on.  there will be a more meaningful post later when its not 12:30 am.

i know all the facts.

tgif. definately.

i could NOT deal with academics one more day.  haha im so glad that it’s the weekend!!!  so plans this weekend
tonight: youth group at 630 and then cleanin my room to Kate Voegele.
tomorrow: maybe going through all my clothes, it’s about time.
sunday: church, youth group and then home to rest and work on my math midterm.

then i have school again!  i really think we need longer weekends.  its ok though theres only 72 days of school left.  it’s kinda scary because then i’ll be a senior and get ready for college. i can’t even vision that far ahead.  Last year i never thought i was gonna live to 16 or anything haha.  but here i am 16 and 8 months old and thinking about college, oh gawshh.

i wish you were here…

so today was better than yesterday.  i guess all i can do now is live day to day and just be myself. its not my fault this is goin on, but in a way it is.  its so complicated, yet simple all at the same time.

i dont have time to type it all out, i will later.

so today was…awkward.

its kinda hard to not be pulled into stuff people talk about these days.  you know, sex, drugs, alcohol.  i don’t mean pulled in as doing it i mean pulled in to the conversation about it.  it’s all people seem to talk about now.  it DOES bother me, even if it seems like i’m in the conversation.  secrety, i just wanna talk about music, writing and other things that DON’T include the chance of Pregnancy or STDs. 

to be honest, i love all my friends at school, but i feel a lot more at home with the people at my youth group.  ive known some of them for only months, and at school i’ve known these people for years.  yet, for some reason i feel a lot closer and a lot more kindred spirit with the people at my youth group.  and i really life it because if i have a bad day at school , i know that there is not a long time before i see people form my youth group again.  Monday’s i have a time where i meet up with a few of the girls, fridays i hang out with everyone and sunday is church, so i’m never more than 3 or 4 days away.

for my youtube subs, i WILL have a video out soon.  and it will be a real one.  it may be my last one before the 2nd week of march.  I am in this club called business professionals of america and our state competition is march 8-10 or something like that so i will be away.  but that also has good news!  there will be a great review movie about it the following week!

 i think thats about all for today.

Does the bible REALLY say anything about dating?

 

This is the question a lot of Christian teens want answered. Does God really have guidelines on how I should date or who I should even date? Does he care if I date the geeky nerd in my math class or the quarterback of the football team? The answer is yes. God wants the best for everyone, even when it comes to who you are dating. Dating isn’t something that HAS to be done in high school. Statistics show that over 50% of girls and 40% of guys don’t even date until after high school! But there is still that other part that do, and it isn’t wrong, you just need to know what God says about it. There are four major points I am going to make: 1) Guard your heart, 2) Keep the right company, 3) Dating only Christians, and 4) knowing the difference between Love and Like.

Stand guard. Stay attentive. Watch out. God wants us to be really careful when it comes to who we date and giving our affections away. It’s because our heart influences everything that we ultimately do. In Proverbs, it says “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23). A wellspring is just like a regular well, it is the one source of water. Think of your emotional body as a town, with your heart as this wellspring. If your wellspring is just giving out water to whatever other towns come around, and they take so much that there is none left for you, what is your town going to do? You need to watch out who you’re giving your water, or heart out to. Keep your well precious to God (1 Peter 15:5-6).

You are who you hang out with. This is something everyone says, but its so true. If you are around people who smoke and drink, odds are, eventually you will be put in a situation where you will be able to smoke or drink. And if you have been hanging around it, you may pick to do these destructive things, Corinthians says “Do not be misled; Bad company corrupts food character (1Corinthians 15:33). This is just as important in dating as in friendships. If you don’t think that you could take this boy home to God, your heavenly father, think twice before dating him. He should be someone who has a good attitude and is supportive, not someone who is going to be destructive towards you (Romans 15:5-6, Philippians 2:1-2).

“He is so nice and kind and smart and sweet to me, but he’s not Christian, but its ok to date him anyways, right?” This statement is completely wrong. God does not want us giving our heart out to non believers in that way. With the example I used before, don’t give out the water of your well to everyone that passes by, because they might come back and run it dry, leaving you with nothing to give the one true person who is meant to have your heart. Although it is ok to have non believers as friends, the people who are truly close to our hearts should be seeking Christ just like we should be. I think the most famous verse to have dealing with this type of relationship is, “Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?” (2Corinthians 6:14). This basically just says that we could not possibly get close to a non believer like that because the righteousness of God cannot get together with the wickedness of the world, or the non believer. Just like you couldn’t put a mouse with a snake together, just in the same way you can’t put yourself in a dating relationship with a non believer without problems occurring.

My last point is one of the biggest. Once you have that relationship with this person, when do you know if it is just like or true love? So many teenagers these days overuse the saying “I love you”. Asking yourself some really simple questions can give you an idea of where you are at. You can look at 1Corinthians 13:4-7 for guidelines on love. These can be used for any kind of love, not just in dating. But for this purpose, as yourself in a dating perspective. Just a few of these questions are, Are you patient with each other?, Are you not easily angered?, and Are you truthful with each other? These among others can be found in this widely known passage and can truly define love which, just to let you know, isn’t going to be present in every relationship.

These four main points, I hope, will be able to give some insight on what the Bible really says about dating. Overall, one needs to be careful with their heart, watch who they are with, make sure you are putting yourself with a Christ loving person, and don’t be quick to slip the “L” word. God cares about you and wants what’s best for your heart.

“best friends”

kindergarten- met at the circus at the bathroom break “you done yet!?” haha.
first grade-getting split up for talking to much, but talked anyways. writing those books, i still have mine.
second grade- not in the same class, but still hung out a ton. parties, sleepovers…
thrid grade- oh gosh, pretty much the same as first, plus 2 years. fourth grade- different classes, different buses, same houses. hanging out all the time, more sleepovers, pool time, ect.
fifth grade- arts classes together, homeroom fun time, lockerrrrrrrrs. :]
sixth grade- me not even there, didnt talk as much. whatever.
seventh grade- back in april, same class, same homeroom. 24/7 together. haha boys….my sp! spongebob!
eigth grade- graduation year. select chrous, “we cannn”, leesha…, BP OR THS!?
ninth grade-highhh schoool. no classes together, sleepovers, pool, makin the computer together, final shop!.
tenth grade- shop shop shop, group projects, fan fic, crazy picture days.

and 11th grade….this year. this year started out ok, but then fridays, taken. weekends, taken. any other day, taken.you know for that long of a time, you’d tihnk we could get through this. we’ve been through some pretty bad rain storms, but this one seems like a hurricane, and im in the cardboard box under the bridge.

wow.

I just realized i’m not over you. i though i was and every time i see you i don’t get that jumpy feeling, but i saw those words on my screen and my stomach lurched and i felt like i was going to throw up.  Like i wanted to scream it out even though you already know.  I know you’re not the one but something inside me won’t let go.  i hate that part, because thanks to this part, i feel like crap constantly.  I see you and want to just tell you how i feel again but i know what you’ll say and what will be said.  i don’t care what people say about me, except when it’s about this.  i can’t take this.  my body just won’t sleep well, and i don’t know why.  I want to be free of you in my thoughts.  it’s been almost 2 years and i hate it.  this is the worst thing that could ever happen and yet part of me still holds on to you.  i don’t want to anymore, leave me, please i don’t care if you break me down, just somehow make that little part let go of you so i can MOVE ON.

UPDATE 6:45

why does she do this to me. have we not been friends for 10 years.  i mean like im not blaming her and im not blaming me i dont know whats going on anymore.  we havent hung out in forever.

So today i finally realized i give up on this stupid ankle.  I broke it last sunday and this past week has been horrible.  I have had 2 different casts, and 2 trips to a doctor or hospital.  I can’t put weight on it for 4 weeks and every muscle in my body is sore.  i can NOT wait to melt these crutches.